bleh

well.. as everyone has their report cards... yeah... when i saw my mark... i was surprised for a few... in that they were lower than expected... others i expected... then yeah... led to me having the same mark i had last yr!.... y oh y do i always get the same mark? mmm... n my effort feels so minimal... i want to try my best... i keep thinking that way... but i never get around to becoming like that... cant live up to my own ______ ... yeah... (duno the word 4 it :P) i feel like im losing my edge in school... academically... not really excited about learning (no longer the innocent kid)... and i was never confident... dunno.. been reminicing about my life... how things happen... and im wondering about my future... what the "BIG Plan" is... duno... with U applications... i just keep thinking... my goal is to become a doctor.. but with the amount of effort i put in... will i make it? and i dont have a secondary option... cuz i've always... thought being a doctor would be best... hence killing my imagination for other jobs i could do... Hobo? lol... well just typign wht im thinkin rite now... oh crap... wasted the last 10 minutes... gotta do bible (not that it counts..)

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Well... might as well add this to yeah... my glasses broke.. like the frame... so yeah... hopefully i can live with a headache from using my old glasses... but w/e... or i'll use my taped up broken one...missing one of the pieces that goes over the ear... la... that's as bad as it can get :P... only gettin betta from here lol...

Worst Day EVER?!

yeah.. i would say it is... had 3 tests/quizzes... one of them being big... the others not so big, but since it's grade 12... all important... screwed up chem... (dunno i can just feel it :P)... Family was ok... i rmb a lot... forgot sum terms.. but w/e... think i got 80?... yeah... then physics... (well.. i never know what i'll get for physics... 70, 80, 99, 100?) yeah... SO AFTER ALL EM TESTS! I HAFTA TAKE MY G2! (the onnly thing i was looking forward too)... but no.. i get a female tester (not to be sexist, but it's true) and she flunks me for a minor mistake... (passed the white line when braking for a right turn at an intersection on red... yeah, it JUST turned red... so i was like.. check for oncoming traffic... WTH? she presses on the brake... and she tells me it's a big mistake... and im like (how could somebody, honestly, make it through the crossing b4 the horizontal lanes have a green light? (J-walk? in this area? at this time? dun think so) but didnt say anything.. figured would do anything to me... but then she tells me to drive back to the place.. i was like... wat about parking and all that.. she writes on the paper... "Test Terminated for Safety" i was like... OMG! obviously i cant retaliate... so w/e... i'll just get it in Jan..hopefully get a male tester? grr... well.. cant get any worse than that...

yay! a break from school =D

yeah... so first PD day... slept in (finally) but had to get up at around 10:30 to get ready to go to Jap buffet with my parents... yeah soo good!!! yup... it was a pretty uneventful day... but w/e... i ended up playing sum CS... doing sum hmk... n solving sum Sudoku's... everr since the bio/chem trip to UofT... yeah sam... it's all thanks to u :P... so yeah... i can do the ez ones, but neone wanna help me with the hard ones? maybe it's cuz i was sleepy, but w/e... so yeah went to UofT today, expecting a mini-med school thing... but ended up being sumthing else... so rather than wasting a ticket, i went to fairview to check things out... walked in, saw Toria (what a coincidence) ... yeah ended up going to the arcade 4 a bit... n saw a group of guyz behind me through the screen... n yeah... i was like... do i know em? but kept on playing... one held me by the neck i was like... wth? then i heard the voice n i was like... stan... lol... yup... so it ended up being stan, derek, lionel (i think, didnt check) but yeah they left a short while after cuz they prob had a movie to watch or sumthing... so w/e that was my uneventful day...