bleh

well.. as everyone has their report cards... yeah... when i saw my mark... i was surprised for a few... in that they were lower than expected... others i expected... then yeah... led to me having the same mark i had last yr!.... y oh y do i always get the same mark? mmm... n my effort feels so minimal... i want to try my best... i keep thinking that way... but i never get around to becoming like that... cant live up to my own ______ ... yeah... (duno the word 4 it :P) i feel like im losing my edge in school... academically... not really excited about learning (no longer the innocent kid)... and i was never confident... dunno.. been reminicing about my life... how things happen... and im wondering about my future... what the "BIG Plan" is... duno... with U applications... i just keep thinking... my goal is to become a doctor.. but with the amount of effort i put in... will i make it? and i dont have a secondary option... cuz i've always... thought being a doctor would be best... hence killing my imagination for other jobs i could do... Hobo? lol... well just typign wht im thinkin rite now... oh crap... wasted the last 10 minutes... gotta do bible (not that it counts..)

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Well... might as well add this to yeah... my glasses broke.. like the frame... so yeah... hopefully i can live with a headache from using my old glasses... but w/e... or i'll use my taped up broken one...missing one of the pieces that goes over the ear... la... that's as bad as it can get :P... only gettin betta from here lol...