well.. obviously havent been on blogger for a whole lot of time now... been on facebook quite often now, since it's totally more addicting than blogger XD.... i guess for anyone that still has this link in their comp somewhere... will be able to read this... just been reminiscing a bit and wandered around online for a while, and realized i hadnt been on my blog for a crap-load of time ><'.
Uni-lyfe... what can i say, no greater freedom (or so i thought) and school is a major pain in the ass...been thinking about life goals and such. Those of you who remember me, prob heard my whole spiel on my life, my goals, n stuff and i have to say... i dont think it was my own... just took it to be "the best life" for me that everyone one around me (family + parents frds) kinda put on me... now that im in uni trying to fulfill this idealistic future, I'm kinda unsure about stuff.. what do i really want to do? waht are my intrests? strengths? etc... All my decisiions have probably been based on the most "logical" thing to do at the time or most "beneficial" aka pros outweigh the cons... hence i am so freaking indecisive all the time. I've got frds telling me to make up my freaking mind all the time XD... and they have a point. Life was so much simpler back then up through highschool, when i had my ideals and just went through my days with that in mind... having parents on my butt about school and stuff... but now with them away... i dont have the pressure (or as much of it) for school and i've taken a step back and thought about things... (i know this sounds like a crapload of just jumbled thoughts with no conclusion, but i gotta express it somewhere; if no one see's this, all the same)... I loved life at PCA, it was fun with friends and best of all, it was easy, so i have to admit i didnt put all that much effort every day academically... I never really took risks and was always self-conscious so i didnt think i was that popular... apparently I was wrong when a group of PCA kids came to UWO to see the campus... hmm i guess i'll talk about that too... (slight detour) but the day was like any other... just came back from an exam (midterm) and wanted to destress from all the pressure, so i went on my comp and played CS... as always.. (Top 3 @ western btw ^^, not including those uber good guys that prob arent playing) and I hear my roomate is going to do tours, so i was like... cool... dont show my room if u want to show "good students" lol... but yeah this group i heard was lead in by another tour guide.. so i was kinda like wth... but was to immersed in gaming to think much of it... then a girl showed up at my door... and i looked over... she recognized me and i was like... "OH... ur... (no idea)" and just looked back to my comp... she then proceeded to bring everyone else in the group, which were all PCA kids... and i was like... soo.. yeah this me playing games at uni ^^',... apparently everyone knew who i was as i heard "Benson? you mean Benson Zhou?" when the girl went to get them... I guess it was a shock to me that people knew who i was... cuz i never really stood out much... never grabbed the spotlight... just went through my days chilling with friends... and yeaa...
Friends... how i've missed everyone that's been a part of my life... you know who you are XD... thinking back to elementary... i rmb how nervous i was the first day.. i remember meeting bri, and curt, especially since ur parents came to my mom's clinic... sam, rmb the time when we had sleep-overs a blast with my super nintendo... then onward to N64 later on... ahh... those were the days... it was a blast hanging out with you guys... and now i'm with you guys in Uni... although i never see u guys outside of some classes or ACF... but if you guys read this, just know that I cherish you guys... I am who I am thanks to you guys... childhood friends... wish i was closer to you guys at this point, but i guess that's something i can work on :)... Jerome and Mike Li... I remember in the later years of highschool... vividly remembering the "Superiors" and poker nights...man... so much fun. Thanks for all the help in school, all the fun times, and Jerome... thanks man for all the support... you've helped me a TON during my ups and downs with some of my struggles in my spiritual life... miss having you as my brother in Christ... Johnna... dont know if u have this link.. but if you happen to see it, it was awesome having you in my life bro... although we dont talk much right now... ever since uni actually... know that i wont forget you... my ballin korean bro... it was sick times... wish i got to know you more... and that we got tighter... but there's stil time right? Stan... aww cars are awesome... hearing ur stories...so sick lol. Still got ur "business card" that you gave me a LONG time ago... prob back to grade 9 or 10... u know... the one with the FD and FC... etc... hope to talk more and hang out bud... and i hope that aznphyr is still there... i know u guys were tight ... ugh... my wrist.... is dying... but w/e... My bros... Jay and VL... special shoutout to u guys... i left the best, for the last =)... I miss u guys... miss the fun times, tight times, etc... remember with JW, joey, and clem... our FWDS crew... that was sick... btw i'm still good on ID3 :)... brought me in to loving cars... u guys have been my closest friends since middle school... when i was really down... but hanging out with you guys was the best times of my life... through the years... lets see... Starcraft, CNC Renegade, IDS3, well u guys had ROSE ON and Ragnarok... to the Grad Trip... man that was sick... new york city hanging out with you guys... to Prom night when we had that limo... and u guys had dates... although i kinda felt like a 3rd/5th wheel lol... that was a fun night... looking forward to more fun times... know that i wont forget ALL of you guys... you're all a part of me!
Gonna write a separate one here... for uni guys... roomies first year... curt, mike and richard... and all the PCA kids @ western that i still see? that was such a coincidence eh? Curt... known you since grade one... been close, far, and now neutral? iunno.. never really got to know you THAT well... dont know what you're going through... well yeah, i've never been around that much... Mike... it was a sick year getting to know you... wrestling, chatting... you were my spiritual bro when I've just parted ways with my highschool one for the time... It was great having chats with you... finding someone that was the same as me was awesome...i vividly remember our tallks... how we feel the same... and truly think the same way in situations... hope ur doing well at UT this year... will be back soon so we can chill :)... First year was pretty much all fun and games... going out and stuf... it was awesome... hope to become even better friends for the following years... stil be there when we've graduated and working right? Family parties? lol yeah thinking way too far... anyway... Richard... didnt really get to know u all that much first year or this year... but work during the summer... awesome time selling knives llol... twas pretty interesting... but man... i realize you're a great friend... always there when i really need help... and i'm seeing you at ACF now... hope u grow close to God man... cuz He's AWESOME! lets go chill during christmas + onward aite?... Bri and Sam... great seeing you guys around campus... never really talk all that much, but there will be times right?... i'll come visit more often (hopefully)... Bri... you're doing an awesome job as a cell group leader with Jess... keep it up :)... you're always a role model for me in my faith... i dont know why... but it just feels like you're really close... always leading, always following the path God has set for you... i dont know how to explain it, but that's how i feel... I know ur life is going to be full of success...Kat and Clara... lol u guys changed quite a bit from highschool eh... more outgoing now?? lol... well it was fun times first year... at perth... and summer school at ur place kat... josh is such a joker XD... hope the best for both of you... maybe we'll hang out more.. iunno... time seems to be so scarce nowadays... now for everyone i've met... lol this is going to take a while... (die wrists die!) 3E... Kan, Andrew V, Jen Y, Jeff, Eric, Christina (officially a member due to time spent here rather than medsyd)... 4W... Janny, Glenyx... Hodgie, Alan, Matt A, Sabbie, Karen (all of you), Claudia, Jeff C, Michelle, Andrew Wang (man pretty hard recalling everyone) Vincent, Sharon, Edwin, Eldon, Joe Chan, Gavin, Wayne, Loey, Tiff, Shelby, Jenny, Shirley, all of ACF pretty much... the list just keeps going... man it was an awesome first year... and although we're separated by rez... i still and will always remember all of you guys... i wont be able to write something for everyone (for the sake of time and for my wrists/fingers that are dying.... i'll add more when i take a breather)... MJ nights at elgin... that was fun... people walking by thinking "those crazy asians"... Fleetway, Karaoke + Pool... always the best times :)... Hodgie... wont ever forget meeting you by that name... playing frisbee in good weather... thanks again for the suit jacket... and the chat this year with christina... got a lot off my chest... ur bday party was a blast XD... have fun with the dares? lol... pie in the face... etc... yeah... ballin at ur place... man... so many events... lookin forward to this year too... good luck with ur studies and lets have a blast... Janny... lol studying, watching movies... fun times lol... just wanna say take care... dont overwork yourself... get some rest, you need + deserve it... awesome time watching movies and hanging out... oh and dont hold everything inside... it's really hard to confront you when yhou have a "pissed" face on lol... (women truly scare me sometimes)... Joe and Gavin... such jokers lol... it was truly awesome meeting you guys... and this year for ultimate frisbee... sick!! lol... Gavin... boybands never die right?! lol... yeahh... i remember the prank during summer... kat foo's first time lol... little planning but perfect execution :)... wont forget that day lol... Rock climbing with tiff beating everyone else.. lol... and me not being able to go at all after... one round lol... (must work out more, 300 style!!!! AH-OOO)...Glenyx... and the rest of the CS crew... we PWN!!! go AWZUM!!! lol... (real original naming huh?) lol... it's been a blast... remind me not to mess with you glenyx when u have an m4/ak lol... thanks for the gifts, the cheeryness lol... u and drew are such jokers... and identical lol... it's been so fun hanging out with you guys... brighten my day every time lol... thanks for the gift(s)/card(s) - especially the CS account ^^... looking forward to another year of fun times, and CS pwnage :)... Alan/ANAL... ^^... so we're on the CSA bball team... i never thought i'd be here lol... but i'll practice so i can surpass ur air + skills :)... and stuff edwin ^^... ummm it's been a great 1.5 years... watch the drinking lol... (i will too) and lets sing more XD... awesomeness chiling at the beginning of the year while u were working toward townwest... working out... ballin... etc... more times to come... always a blast and hilarious time with you around... ohhh table tennis too XD... i'll pwn u one day... in an even match ^^... Kan... i rmb the "yick" phase and my frds with ur first name as their last... thanks for all the support... this year especially... thanks for looking out for a frd... although i might not show my appreciation, it's there... it's for my best right? lol... I'll always be around when you need help, and i'll do what i kan ^^... oh and thanks for teaching me the proper way to kick... should come in handy (although hopefully not) XD... Lastly(for now) Drew... my big gassy and good friend... it's never a dull moment with you when we're not studying (or even when we're studying)... it'll never be dull when ur tired XD... you know what i mean... We have the same heart... big ones... lol... just like mike... i guess that's why we always get along eh? (although we dont always show it lol - so much verbal offense) jokes... lol... thanks for all the help in school... and for being perfectly honest... (sometimes obtrusive? lol jk...) more fun times to come right?
...I guess i'll ramble on about everything else too... BUT i'll post it later... ugh wrist + fingers are DEAD... lol... wow been at this for over an hour ><' back to studying lol...
